Unke Nashe Mein

Lyrics of Hinda Song Unke Nashe Mein from
the Movie Shootout at Lokhandwala

unke nashe mein.........
jalate rahe, jalate rahein...
unke nashe mein jalate rahein
haay unke nashe mein jalate raheein
ladakhadaaye, (ladakhadaaye kabhi kabhi sambhalate rahein - 4)

subah se lekar shaam tak unaka jubaan pe naam tha
(subah se lekar - 2) shaam tak unaka jubaan pe naam tha
woh jaise badali ko saawan se - 3
saawan ko badali se kaam tha
milney ko unse taraste rahein
ladakhadaaye, (ladakhadaaye kabhi kabhi sambhalate rahein - 4)

mera unaka jhagada tha - 3
par unase main yeh keh na saka
mera unaka jhagada tha, par unase main yeh keh na saka
meri khata thi, meri saja thi - 2
main dard-e-judai seh na saka
yaddon se unki ladate rahein
ladakhadaaye, (ladakhadaaye kabhi kabhi sambhalate rahein - 4)

???? pi ke
pine waale zarooor pite hain
ho inaki khata nahi koyi
yahi hai kasoor ke pite hain
woh hum maikadon mein hi palate rahein
ladakhadaaye, (ladakhadaaye kabhi kabhi sambhalate rahein - 4)

Perfect Idiot!

I have been searching for long to find a term which would define this fellow just in the right and appropriate way. And I found one today. What less would u call a man who has decided to play dump for the rest of his life. Well, someone who cannot see things with his eyes open is no less than an idiot for me.

Its time for this fellow to realise that things cannot be run like this. Well, it is his call but i don;t think he is going to get anywhere with this kind of attitude. What more can u say for someone who have no criteria to evalute someone else and keep praising those who lack everything.

He is a Perfect Idiot indeed.

Denying Appraisals

Its been 4 months that my boss told me "You are due for a huge appraisal once you finish your MCSD.Net". I was left with just 2 exams at that time and I am still left with 2. I haven't made the attempt to clear them. It would have taken me just a month if I had to clear them but I have chosen otherwise. Reason - If i would take my exams my notice period with stretch to 2 months which I really don't like. I just don't trust the organization enough. Especailly looking at their past records...

So, I have been denying my appraisal for the last 4 months. I could have earned an additional 60K but... I even had a confrontation with my boss regarding this and i told him what was on my mind.
Result - the notice period will not change automatically at appraisals.

Big Win for me? Not exactly, because if I take my appraisal then the unrealistic expectations of the management will increase and I will be put under more pressure. Its me who is loosing either way. I get 20k and I work more then the people who take double the amount I get. And those who get the same as me don't work at all.

The management likes people who are ready to wag their tale in front of them for ever. They want bonded labor. And there are people who are willing to do that. By paying me a higher salary the management might be looking to

# put a ton of work on my plate.
# buy my faith
# doing away with the fear of me leaving out of this organization.

I may be wrong but this is what my perception is, at this time.

I have denied my appraisal for last 4 months and will continue to do so until I move out or the management shifts from its biased double standard thinking. Lets see who blinks first.......

12 Hour Shifts

I am going through a really tough period in my professional career. We just have a 3 member team and we are expected to create magic with our keyboards. Actually, we are not even 3. The TL has been real busy for a long time now and as of now he is not here. Result - me working late in office, carrying the load of the team, churning out whatever i can. My 8 hour job is now a 12 hour one and even more at times. I have got just no time for myself.

This is not the first time that the Management has been unrealistic and unreasonable in their expectations from me. Really, don't understand their theory. I don't know what they plan for me but i am sure it can be more work what else can they think of.

Poor me under so much stress and don't really have anyone to share my workload with. And on top of all this i have to listen to everything the management has to say.

If i loved my work any lesser, i would have resigned by now... but it is my love for my job which is keeping me alive in this organization.

Om Shanti Om - Reviewed

If u r a big fan of the 70's then this one is definitely for u. The movie is about reincarnation, something that was very common in the 70's Bollywood.

The movie looked good in the first but the 2nd half was a hangover of Rishi Kapoor starrer Karz.
The treatment of the movie is really lame and its not something that you would really expect from this movie.

The movie has done well due to its release during diwali season.

While the hype was huge, the movie didn't lived upto the expectations. Still if u r a Shahrukh Khan fan u will love this.

Saawariya - Reviewed

Last evening I went out to watch the much awaited Saawariya with my pals. Well, i am not hugely disapponited in the movie. It is a story well written and well told. And the actors really stand out.

The entire movie is shot in a single set and the backdrop has a bluish hue. The director has kept it really simple. And this simplicity helps to bring out the characters and the story and makes sure that the viewers attention is on the main storyline.

Saawariya is set in a dreamland. A place you won't find on earth, i guess. The movie is about a boy, a boy every girl will dream of - Saawariya, and his love for this girl Sakina. Ranbir and Sonam had looked good and supporting cast has also impressed (Zohra Seghal, Salman Khan, Rani Mukhrjee etc.).

The entire movie looks beautiful. This sure is a movie not for the masses but if you a purist and you like threatre kind of cinema it will be a treat for u.

Om Shanti Om VS. Saawariya

The last week saw the release of 2 big films - King Khan starrer Om Shanti Om and Ranbir Kapoor and Sonam Kapoor's dream debut Saawariya. While Om Shanti Om is a full-on masala movie while Saawariya is a romantic flick. Both movies had big expectations. Both the directors, Farah Khan and Sanjay Leela Bhansali had great success with their previous ventures. Farah is known for her vibrant full of life movies while Bhansali is a different director, a purist's delite.

It was quite strange to me how the whole nation got it wrong. It was not Farah vs. Bhansali nor it was King Khan vs. Ranbir Kapoor. Rather it all boiled down to Shahrukh at one and Bhansali at other. A great actor against an amazing director. Well we can only wait and say what the critics and more importantly the viewers have to say. Best of luck to both the movies.

Skoda Laura vRS - My Next Car

Oz Vs. Us

The recent Aus-India one day series has really been more than just a cricket tournament. Words were exchanged, tempers were raised and swords were crossed between the two teams.

Australia off late has been a team whose members doesn't mind sledging on the cricket field and they dont mind hitting it below the belt. Indians have tasted this before. But, this time the Indians had decided to give it back to the Oz. And the Oz were clearly rattled by this. You must have heard Andrew Symonds and Ricky Ponting saying that the Indians are crossing the limit. They have clearly show sings of cracks in their ranks. They just can't take what they have been serving to the rest of the world.

Aus has long been involved into Racism and this is due to the conditions back in Australia. In Australia racism is everywhere. They say that its not there but it is. In Australia if you belong to a lower sect or class u can never make it to the international level.. be it sports or anything else.

Well, lets not worry about Australia much. I am really happy this India team has been matching word to word with the Oz.

We have the Forums!! Finally!!

Yup, all the hard work that the team had put in has finally paid off. All those sleepless nights in the office has finally meant something. It was close but yet so far for us. But now when we have done it, we are very much releaved.

We have been trying to launch the Forums section of our website for quite sometime now. But, the software we are using gave us nightmares. Its just a badly coded piece of software with an endless count of bugs. You fix one, just to find that another one has been revealed. Its been real tough for the team to fix these bugs. Finally we decided to go live with a ton of functionality turned off. And it just suits our requirements. We would have loved to have the extra bits of functionality but anyways, we are just happy to have it live.

There are other interesting things that I can look upto now....

World Champions!!

Last night was big for everyone in India. It was India v/s Pakistan in the World 20-20 finals. Noone has thought that either team would make it this far in the competition, especially the way they had departed from the recently held World Cup. Both India and Pakistan had a torrid time there. But this time both teams had played brilliant cricket. India after struggling early in the competition emerged as a potent force beating the likes of England, South Africa and Australia to reach the finals.

This was the big day. The stage was set. India and Pakistan in the finals. This was unprecedented.

India posted a mediocre 157 in their alotted 20 overs. It looked an easy target for Pakistan but RP Singh had different plans. He took 2 inside the first 5 overs. And a brilliant thorw from Utaphha got the better of a limping Imran Nazir. The game was evenly poised. Then Joginder got Yunus Khan to mistime one arial shot which went straight to Yusuf Pathan. It was really on now. It was time for Irfan Pathan to join the party. One over from him saw the backs of Shoaib Malik and Shahid Afridi. Misbha and Arafat were left to do the repairs. Arafat played a few shots before Irfan ratteled his stumps. Misbha was a lone ranger now. But he was not giving up. He hit Harbhajan Singh for 3 sixes in the 17th over. Next over, Sreesanth got a beating from Tanveer who hit him for 2 sixes before being bowled. It was upto RP Singh again. RP bowled a good over and got Gul. Now Pakistan required 13 of the last over and Misbha had the strike. Dhoni had to make a call. He showed trust in Jogindar Sharma. The plan was to bowl outside the off stump. The batsman could only hit him for a square drive and Dhoni had it covered. The 1st ball was a wide. The 2nd a dot. 3rd ball, Joginder tried a yorker which became a full toss for Misbha. Misbha made the most of it, hitting a straight six. Now its was 4 balls and 6 runs to get. Joginder had the bowl. Misbha moved outside the offstump to play the scoop one over fine leg but the ball got the better of him and he was caught by Sreesanth who was standing inside the 30 yard circle. The stadium erupted. One could see tricolors all over Wanderers.

It was a nail biting finish but Dhoni and company kept their cool and raised the cup. A complete thriller. 20-20 at its very best. 2 arch rivals had fought it out on those 22 yards with one coming up just short of the other. Both teams had displayed their skill at this game.

Hope India keeps the winning spree going. We will next face Australia at home. The team will be riding big on confidence and Dhoni, the new captain, will be really charged up.

20-20 is On! Are we up for it

Its been a week since the 20-20 world cup has started. And this time around India has somehow managed to get to the Super Eights.

My big worry is: are we prepared for it? As a cricket playing nation we are the last one to acknowledge this format of game and our big three.. Tendulkar, Ganguly and Dravid has decided not to participate. That leaves the current captian Dhoni with limited number of options. I really dont know how we will fare in the super eights. And, I will have to admit that we look weaker than most teams participating in the tournament. Lets hope the boys turn the tables around and prove to be the dark horse of the tournament.

I sound a little too hopeful, but then I am Indian.....

Chak De India!!

I could not help but notice how our nation has been doing well at all the major sports recently.

Our hockey teams, both mens and womens teams are on a roll. The mens is doing so well that they r trashing other teams by a ton of goals.

Our football team is also doing pretty well with its new coach.

And cricket, yes, just last night we drew levels with England after being 3-1 down in the seven one day match Netwest series. And we have already conquered the test series. It was a spirited performance by the men in blue while they had to chase a mammoth total of 313. But the Young India brigade (Ghambhir, Dhoni, Uttahapa) kept its head cool and we came out victorious.

Has SRK's Chakde India really done a magic or its just that everything is coming right just at the right time. Whatever, we are rolling and i hope we keep doing so....

Chak De India....

Our Leader Board is Up

Just last night my team finished uploading a leader board to our website. I was handed the responsibility to code this one and it gave me some tough time. The CSS was the most difficult to handle. The body had a background image but we wanted our leader board at the top and without that background. It took some tweaking of the existing CSS and in the end I came out victorious.

My boss thanked my team to get this one done in space of about 2 days, right from the inception of the concept to the final uploading.

We are also delighted to get this one. There are a few more tweaks that we will make to our website and I think I will be coding those too :). Looking forward to such challenges.

Will write back again.

Behind Schedules :(

I finished my last entry in great rush and I am in great frustration while writing this entry. And this was the easiest way for me to vent my frustrations.

Actually, my team is running behind schedule for a project and it has become far too frustrating for me now. We were supposed to get it up and running by the end of may but that didn't happen. Even now we are struggling to meet our deadline which, as it looks at this moment, we will miss.

We are trying to customise an application for our own project but the damn thing is just not moving. We have read every single article that we cud get our hands on but still no gud. There is not just enough available on the net. Even, Mr. Google cudn't help us this time around. We are working hard but still we are not getting anywhere :(

The only excuse we have is, all the work that we have done inbetween... but that really won't save us for long. We need to show up our work and that too really quickly.

I have my fingres crossed and can only look towards my team members for inspiration.

An Imperfect Individual!!

Just the other day one of my friends made me realise how imperfect i am. And, how much fun it is to be imperfect. There r people who try to be perfect in every sense. Right from the way they dress up to the way they pick the coffee mug. Do they really have fun? Better to ask them, i guess?

Well, if you were to ask me if i enjoy being unperfect then i wud say yes i do. I can get away with so much coz noone expects me to be prefect. Saves a ton of hassel for me. And, still i have all the fun that i want to have. If i am perfect in every sense, then i will have a rapport to take care off. Which again is not my cup of tea.

I don't really giva a damn what people think or say about me. They can run their mouths in whatever way they desire...

I am happy being "An Imperfect Individual"...

Hitting 1000!

Yahoo! my orkut scrap count has finally hit 1000. It took me more than one complete year of orkutting to reach this milestone...

I wud like to give my sincere thanks to all those people who have contributed towards this... i mean it, really.

It was not an easy journey. Persuading people to write scraps to u is a tough job in itself. With 80 friends in my list i have managed this.

And there were those who have the habit of deleting their scraps. Had a tough time with those.

Hope to hit 2000 in quick time now......

3 cheers for orkut..

Delhi Govt. Sc***ed up, Again!

Delhi govt has made this a habit. They love to take action but rarely do they have an action plan. They are taking Bluelines off the roads but they don't have enough replacements. Then, y in the hack r they doing this. The ones who are pulling the strings rarely travel in the buses so they really don't have an idea about the woes of the common man.

Its not like there were no blueline accidents before. Yes there were, but the govt could not have cared less. All that we see around these days is a reaction to the media coverage of such events. Had media not been covering this the results would have been the same.

The govt has once again proved its shortage of ideas and action plans. Yes they have sc***ed up, yet again!

Is Cricket Dead?

If u ask me it is dead for me by now. Well, the India team is touring England these days and there is hardly anyone talking about it. The interest in the game is just not there anymore. People have found out that they can do better things with their time.

Who is to blame? To a ceratin extent the team itself. The great performance that we put up at the World Cup 07 is haunting us now. The game is dying more quickly then anyone would have ever imagined. This might be a blessing in disguise for other sports like hockey, tennis etc.

Unless our team really performs amazingly at some grand tournament the story will continue to be this only.

As of now, we can just sit back and watch the game decay.....

Deadlines!!

Deadlines... this is all that I have on my plate right now. And the best part is that the pile is getting bigger by the day. Quite a lot of u will be amused to know that I have deadlines even for reading books. Yeah, this is right. I have to finish 2 really voluminous books to read and I believe that I will have a really torrid time reading those.

Well all I can say is "Hardwork Conquers All" and I shall be able to finish these on time. Will have to rethink my studying schedule. Will see what comes out.

My other deadlines are also hectic. I have a deadline this friday, one this saturday and then on every friday of the week.

Poor Me!! under so much stress....

Rolling Stones Gather No Moss

This is what my boss told me when I asked him, y my seat have been changed again. This is my 6th seat in this room and I am really fed up of all this. Every time someone has to join my seat gets changed and all I can do is nothing but just carry my stuff from one place to another.

I really don't understand why its always me, and why can't I be made to sit at a place which is permanent. Stupid theories is all the 'Management' can give about thier really stupid actions.

Well, all I can do is cry about this coz my voice always falls on deaf ears. I have made it a point to wait for the right moment and then say it out.

As of now I am quite. But this my be the silence before the storm.

Back to Square 1

I am back at work, although not at full speed but catching up. Don't have much pressure at this time but it is sure to mount higher and higher. And things will be same again. Coming to office early, leaving late and coding even in my dreams.

I know I am supposed to make a huge attempt to get my life at full pace but even I need a break, sometimes. Anyways, I can crib and cry about what I don't have or I can make an honest attempt to make my life better. And that's what I am trying to do.

Much about me. But there are other things going around also. Will write back soon.....

Its Over

My exams are over and I cannot be more elated. The last 19 days have been really tough and I have struggled a lot during these days.

I am glad that it is finally over. Thank God. Looking forward to new things now. I am looking for a big change. Yeah, I really big change. Lets see what happenes. As of now I am just happy that I am free for a while.

Nearing the End

Exams are coming to a close this tuesday and I can't be any happier. Its been a very long period. 19 gruling days (1st-19th July) and it has really taken the air out of me.

Not much to write home about the exams :(. I am left with just 3 exams and then it will be all over for this sem and then in December again I will have to undergo this process. I am not thinking about december right now. Just want to do well in the remaining exams and that's it.

After exams its office again for me. No breaks. Don't know what's in store for me.

I guess till the 19th I can only wait.

Parasites!

Yeah, I am trying to mix my exams with my work. I have been to my office in between my exams. Amd the exams, they are stretched upon such a long time. Wish, it had ended earlier.
Anyways, things at my workplace are ok.

I have just been moved out of a team and pushed into another one so don't have that many responsibilites on my head :). Don't know what I am expected to do in this new team. There are alreday a few whom u can categorize as the informal team leaders.

I have no issues working under/with anyone, its just that the management has failed time and again in just establishing the fact that what is my role. I have been doing a lot of roles for about 6-8 months now or maybe more. Project Management, Maintenanace, Development etc.

There are a few of those kind who need to be spoonfed everything. If I can read a client so can they. But they have made it a point to bug me time and again about the mails. Their typical reaction is "I get a lot of mails and I don't read all of them". This has been their habit for a bit too long now. I think, at an age that they are now, they should be responsible for their own work. I can't spend 15 mins every hour explaining what is to be done.

I plan to say all this in my next review and I am waiting it eagerly. And this time the parasites may better be prepared.

Back From The Garage

I got my car back today and the feeling of getting it back was overwhelming. The last one week has been really long for me. The wait was so agonising. But now it is over.

I will staying away from the car for a while now. Lets see when I drive it again.

The car looks fine. They have changed the bumper. I also saw the spot where a banged it. It haunted me for a while. But then, the car was in the able hands of the dealership so.

Right now, I am happy to get my car back. And when I look 1 week back from now, I feel happy to be alive.

Me Against The Books

My exams are on from tomorrow and I am having a real tough time reading all these books. Reading is just not my cup of tea. Not sure how I will fare, but have got my fingres crossed.

Exams are always tough especially when you haven't touched your books the entire semester. And this time around they are even tougher for me. I have been studying for a while but not my course material but .NET stuff. After all I need to keep my job.

Anyways no love is lost between me and my studies. Sometimes a wish if I could do just one thing at a time rather than multitask a whole bunch of activities. Guess, this is what god has choosen for me.

I am looking forward to each day as it comes hoping destiny has some nice things in store for me.

As for my war with books, its on... its really on now.

Conquering Microsoft

No, I haven't overtaken Microsoft and Bill Gates is doing fine, I guess. But these Microsoft softwares, they always give me trouble. This time around it was Visual Studio 2005. The studio installed fine but the Service Pack for the same was giving me nightmares.

I have been trying to install this from last three days and it was not going anywhere. I had read every article on the INTERNET and knew this is not going to be easy. But, I tried. I even had to format my system. But still it gave me trouble. So, I resorted to a registry hack and tried it again and this time around I was successful. I was elated and over-joyous as my dogged determination to get it done had payed off. Microsoft was conquered, finally.

Overhauling

Its been 2 days that my car is sitting in the workshop. I am supposed to get it back by this Sunday. Well the damage on the car is critical. The left side apron is twisted and hence the left front tyre is giving some problem. The bumper is in bad shape. Plus the left hand side finder. Yeah its a story in itself. When the mechanic saw it he said it will be dented and repaired. But i insisted on a new one. So, what he did? He just took some tool and created a huge hole in the finder, simple. Now, it can only be replaced and not repaired.

The mechanic has convinced me that it will be just fine. I hope it turns out that way only. I am not sure how much I will have to pay but since it is insured, i guess not much.

The agent, through whom i got my car has been really helpful all this while. Infact, the day the car crashed and I called him to assess the damage he was right there in about 20 mins. I owe one to him.

And my folks, they are cool about it. My mom, when saw the damage for the first time said "You are fine naa!, that's all". Love her for that.

Hope to see my car this Sunday. Will right again.

Car Crash

Yeah, my first car and my first car crash, that's what can sum it up in a bit.

Trust me, it was not good. Its has just been a month that I got my learning license and i have been driving since then. But i had not driven for the last one week. My folks have been forcing me to, but i was avoiding, y i don't know, maybe i was scared of a crash. Anyways, my dad convinced me today to drive and i was driving nicely. Then he asked me to take a turn. This is when it happened. I turned the car pressed the clutch and it all went bisserk. I lost the control over the car. We were about to hit a tree but my dad turned the steering just a wee bit and we went crashing into a side wall.

I was scared to death and feared coming out of the car. My dad went down juso to find that the bumper is gone. What are the other damages we were still to analyze. A few friendly people gathered. One of them was a driver, i guess, he drove my car back on the road. Then we started for home.

All said and done, this has made me come closer to my inner self. And in a second a realised the value of life. I don't know whether i will drive again or not, but i am sure it won't be soon.