My Best Friend is No More my Friend :(

I am in great agony and pain while writing this blog entry. And to be honest I am not sure what to write. I am really hurt with what happened to me this week. 

Someone who was so close to me has decided to desert me. Yes, my best friend has decided that she doesn't want to keep in touch with me and she seemed very clear about what she wants.

She has been my best friend for sometime now. When me first met we connected really well. We became the best of buddies sharing every little thing. She became a part of my life. I enjoyed every moment that I was with her. She use to pamper me a lot. In fact, she ignored a lot of stupid things I did. I felt good that there is someone you can rely upon.

We use to fight a lot. And then I use to make it up to her. Every time we fought the bond between us became stronger. To be honest I started liking her a lot despite of the fact that she has a boyfriend. And everyone took notice of my liking for her. And then I told her how I felt about her and what she means to me. But she was not ready to get into a relationship and she had valid reasons for this. She told me that she cannot be what I want her to be but we can be best friends for a lifetime. I liked her honesty and decided that lets keep it that way only.  But deep inside me the desire for her kept burning. 

And then this happened. She started maintaining her distance from me. I kept asking but she did not replied. For six months this continued. And then one day when I called her up, I was surprised by what she did. My little angel had gone wicked. She said a lot of wicked things to me which I could never imagine she could say. But she kept saying and I kept listening. 

I was surprised to find out that the warmth inside her has suddenly gone. She was really cold and emotionless. The girl I knew was lost. She said she doesn't want to keep in touch. She said I am a very smart man and I play my moves smartly. She even told me that I should not be peeping into her private life.

I asked for reasons, but she has decided to leave me with this burden. I just want to ask her when did I played smart with her and took her advantage. I never lied to her about anything but still had this to say.

My world turned upside down. I was shocked. But I told her that if she doesn't want to keep in touch then let it be like that. My only concern is her happiness and if this makes her happy then let it be like that. And trust me guys, I will not make any attempts to reach out to her again. I just don't want to disturb or bother her anymore.

Some say she used me like the cheapest napkin that one can buy. Some say I was just a 2ND option for her. Some say its her habit to flirt. Some say she is just like that - COLD.

Whatever someone might say, I know what she meant to me. And even today if she needs me for anything I will be available to her. 

Those of you who happen to read this entry, please don't post comments and please don't ask questions. Because, how much I might write, no one can hear the voice inside me. And as sad as I might be, I know life goes on for everyone. And I wish for myself all the luck in the world.

A BUG In My LIFE!

Yes, guys.. my life is now being infected by a bug called HSK. This bug has its roots in Iran and now Gurgaon is its new habitat.

Before u guys go on to draw any conclusions, let me say that this is actually a person that I am talking about. You might have heard of parasites.. guess what.. i met one.

This guy is a complete a**h***. With no tech knowledge he is heading a team, a young team. And the team is suffering greatly because of this guy. He has a habit of shrugging responsibility of his shoulders. And I have confronted him about this a couple. But, I guess, Old Habits Die Hard. And those of this BUG are too old to be replaced.

We are actively working on an Anti-Virus solution for this bug, where we will either remove him completely from our hard disks or at least quarantine him.

Hunting for a Laptop

Its been time since I decided that I want to have a laptop of my own. The reason for me is simple, after sitting in a chair all day long I can't come home and sit on my desktop. A laptop is a must for me and I have great plans once I have it. 

So, I am in the market looking for 1. I am planning to go for Dell as it provides cutosmization. 

I might have my wish this month, and I have my fingres crossed.

My Blog is 1 year OLD

Hi, guys it has been more than I year since I started writing this blog. It all began last year in the month of June when I keyed in my first entry "Car Crash". Since then I have put 39 post on this blog. I have been sluggish in the last 4 months, otherwise I could have reached 50 entries.

I would hereby like to take a moment to thank each and everyone of you for taking out your time and reading my blog.

Sack KPS

1oth March 2008, saw one of the darkest day of Indian hockey. The eight time Olympic gold medalists could not even make it to the games this time. From 1928 to 2008 a lot has changed and to the demise of the entire nation it has changed for worse. The state of affairs has been alarming for a while now but yesterday's events has completely shocked the nation. Our national game has become a shame for us and a joke for many.

But who to blame for all this. If u ask for my opinion i would say the Indian Hockey Federation (IHF) is wholly and solely responsible for it. And to be precise it is the IHF chief for me. The man called KPS Gill has been sitting on this post for the last 14 years now. During this period he has ran the federation like a police gang. 14 years saw 18 coaches and every tournament saw a new team. What Mr. Gill is doing even he doesn't understand. But whatever it is, it is very depressing for the players and for the sport as a whole. Many of players have left the sport and are forced to pursue other careers. The reason is the lack of facilities that the players get and the lack of attention that the sport has. Mr. Gill travels by 1st class and players by 3rd class. Mr. Gill gets to stay in 5 star hotels while our players have to stay in hotels no one has ever heard of.

IHF claims it is a autonomous organization. But can u call an organization autonomous which is not able to generate its own revenue, which has no sponsors and which runs on the aid given by the government. I hope, Mr. Gill and the federation had a better definition of autonomous.

Hockey in our country is really going down the drain and if the situation continues like this, the day is not far when we will start saying that once hockey was our national sport.

A Messed Up Database :(

My new job and my first big assignment. A big database which is running wild with inconsistent and redundant data. Reason, bad database practices. There are hardly any relationships in the database. The constraints are something that have been completely avoided. And the Primary keys are not much to write home about.

And now it is my job to get everything running. I will be fixing the primary keys, the foreign keys and adding constraints. I don't know how i am going to do this since the database is overloaded with quite a handful of data. I might take an herculean attempt from me and the team to fix this baby up.

Software Architect :)

This is a moment of joy for me. I have got a new job and my new profile is Software Architect. Yes, I have hit the home run. I am elated and joyous about my new job. I am looking forward to the kind of projects that shall come my way. My focus will be on ASP.NET 2.0 and C#. Finally I will be able to focus on .NET technologies.

I know it might be too early to comment on anything but being optimistic is my nature. Well, lets see what plans future holds for me. Will write back soon...