I Wished a Lil for Any1, But Now I wish for U !!

I wished a lil for any1

but now wish for u

to see u always smile

is all i wanna do

those eyes they tell me something

i m still to figure that out

and when i do i promise

m gonna say it to the world aloud

hope i cud do this for ever

to sit and look and gaze

being trapped and locked and lost

like some1 in a maze

ur voice is the music

my ears can continue to hear

losing what i have found

is now my only fear

and u be u,

u be nice is what pray

and u be always special to me

is all i gotta say

coz i wished a lilfor any1

but now i wish for u

u see u always

smile is all i wannt do...

Not gr8 stuff, but this was and still is for her..

Gaurav

Loved U Once, Still Love U and Shall Continue to Love U!!

You know there are times when I believe that I don't love u and then there are times when I believe I should not have loved u ever. But the reality doesn't change itself just bcoz i so badly wish it to, it remains that I still love u.

When I first saw u, i was drawn by ur beautiful black eyes, ur nose pin and those straight black hair of urs. You looked just perfect and I believe u still do. I was bowled over my dear, out for a duck as a cricket lover might want to call it. And the way u walked, u had an absolute aura of beauty all around u.

I would look at you from a distance, always thinking if ever I could get a chance to speak to this girl, the girl - of my dreams. And then it so happened that destiny had indeed planned something for me. The day came when I first came within 5 feet of u. I still remember how difficult it was for me to keep my eyes off u. I was smitten.

But it doesn't end there. It so turned out that we met again, of course u initiated it, won't take that credit away from you. And I told myself what r u waiting for man, she is here, reachable. And hence began my quest to win u over. And I tried. The more I came to know you, the more I felt u r the one for me. I enjoyed every moment I was with you. Life was so nice. And my quest gave me a chance to write 1st(or may be 2nd) of my poems. I poured my heart out in every word I wrote and knew this could be the moment I can tell you what you mean to me.

But, little did I forgot, that one can see the moon but cannot reach out and touch it. You said 'No'. I was devastated. I knew u have already chosen a companion on this journey called life. I wanted to hate u and I tried my hardest at it.

But men fail, and so did I, in my attempts to draw myself away from u. You know today when I see u, i might not say a word, but that's just because words fail me.. and I cannot tell you how much I still love u...

I know u mite never read this.. and never will u ever understand what i wanted to say then and what I want to say now... but the fact shall remain 'Loved U Once, Still Love U and Shall Continue to Love U!!'

- Gaurav

Letting GO!!

In ur life u come across a lot of people. Some become special, some become a part of u. But things not always remain the same. Confusions, confrontations, conflicts are a few things which drive u away from the ones u love. I have been through something similar. There were people who were my soul. But then as always I screwed up things.

People moved away from me and I kept standing looking at them leaving me behind. My world shattered, I had no1 by my side.. I kept trying to bring them back to me.. but life doesn't always gives u what u want.

Mornings came, evenings went.. time went by.. my loneliness kept me company. I was down, alone, wandering in emptiness. But now I have learnt to live through all of this.. I don't need people to kept me going.. I was always alone and alone I shall be... I have learnt to let go.

Letting some1 go is not that bad at all.. as I m realizing it now.

I M Missing Some1

Yes, I actually m missing some1. And no prizes for guessing - it is a girl. She is not the usual types. She is intelligent, straightforward and knows how to carry her head on her shoulders.

If u wud have asked me 2 years back - will I ever miss her? The answer wud have been a definite - NO. But then, things change with time and as u discover people u get to know their true personalities.

She believed she knows me inside-out. I wud say she knows me quit well. We were friends for almost a year. Our conversations were mainly on calls. I met her only twice during this period. Once on her birthday, she gave me a card - saying a lot of gud things abt me.

But then something happened, something that drew me away from her. It takes 2 to tango - so 1 can blame both of us.

I m clueless how to reach out to her again. And if she cud listen - Yes, I Miss U.

--

Keep Rocking.

Life Has Come Around A Full Circle

Yes my worst nightmares have come to life and what I have been escaping is finally upon me. The damn thing is called - WPF (abbreviation for Windows Presentation Foundation), just another tech thing Microsoft threw at the world. Last year when I joined this company in January I was given the task to learn and get on with this technology and only I know what I was going through. Having an old PC (which I had to share with my brother) was not helping my cause. So, I slogged and slogged long and hard but to no avail.

Time went by and I mode to ASP.NET something I like doing. But this year again I m right where I left. I need to get on with WPF for a project I am moved onto now. But this time I m better prepared and looking to tackle the whole situation head-on. Three cheers to that.. .

Will rite again. Till Then,

Keep Rocking.

And now they are telling How to Get Romantic

If all those reality shows were not enough, we have got a new one. And this one by far is the wierdest. There is this famous channel which has come up with this concept of arranged-come-love marriages. They have stuffed a household with 5 would be grooms and 10 women trying hard to be their eye candy. And then there are the usual confrontations. The ladies figthing over these guys.

Someone needs to tell these ppl, we have had enough of reality shows and we r not buying atleast this... i mean come on.. this is just too much man...

Find out what colums of a rows have null values - SQL Server

Ever wondered if u cud find out what columns of a row (of a table) have null values. This might help

DECLARE @Table TABLE
(
Id INT IDENTITY(1, 1),
FieldName VARCHAR(100)
)

INSERT INTO @Table (FieldName)
SELECT Column_Name FROM Information_Schema.Columns
WHERE Table_Name = 'Users'
AND Column_Name IN ('Zip', 'Phone', 'DateOfBirth')

CREATE TABLE #Values
(
FieldName VARCHAR(200),
FieldValue VARCHAR(200)
)

DECLARE @RowCount INT, @iLoop INT
DECLARE @FieldName VARCHAR(200)

SET @iLoop = 1
SELECT @RowCount = Count(*) FROM @Table

WHILE (@iLoop <= @RowCount)

BEGIN

SELECT @FieldName = FieldName FROM @Table WHERE Id = @iLoop

EXEC ('INSERT INTO #Values SELECT ''' + @FieldName + ''', ' + @FieldName + ' FROM Users WHERE UserKey = 4')

SET @iLoop = @iLoop + 1

END

SELECT * FROM #Values WHERE FieldValue IS NULL

-- SELECT * FROM #Values WHERE FieldValue IS NOT NULL AND FieldValue <> ''

DROP TABLE #Values