I Wished a Lil for Any1, But Now I wish for U !!

I wished a lil for any1

but now wish for u

to see u always smile

is all i wanna do

those eyes they tell me something

i m still to figure that out

and when i do i promise

m gonna say it to the world aloud

hope i cud do this for ever

to sit and look and gaze

being trapped and locked and lost

like some1 in a maze

ur voice is the music

my ears can continue to hear

losing what i have found

is now my only fear

and u be u,

u be nice is what pray

and u be always special to me

is all i gotta say

coz i wished a lilfor any1

but now i wish for u

u see u always

smile is all i wannt do...

Not gr8 stuff, but this was and still is for her..

Gaurav

Loved U Once, Still Love U and Shall Continue to Love U!!

You know there are times when I believe that I don't love u and then there are times when I believe I should not have loved u ever. But the reality doesn't change itself just bcoz i so badly wish it to, it remains that I still love u.

When I first saw u, i was drawn by ur beautiful black eyes, ur nose pin and those straight black hair of urs. You looked just perfect and I believe u still do. I was bowled over my dear, out for a duck as a cricket lover might want to call it. And the way u walked, u had an absolute aura of beauty all around u.

I would look at you from a distance, always thinking if ever I could get a chance to speak to this girl, the girl - of my dreams. And then it so happened that destiny had indeed planned something for me. The day came when I first came within 5 feet of u. I still remember how difficult it was for me to keep my eyes off u. I was smitten.

But it doesn't end there. It so turned out that we met again, of course u initiated it, won't take that credit away from you. And I told myself what r u waiting for man, she is here, reachable. And hence began my quest to win u over. And I tried. The more I came to know you, the more I felt u r the one for me. I enjoyed every moment I was with you. Life was so nice. And my quest gave me a chance to write 1st(or may be 2nd) of my poems. I poured my heart out in every word I wrote and knew this could be the moment I can tell you what you mean to me.

But, little did I forgot, that one can see the moon but cannot reach out and touch it. You said 'No'. I was devastated. I knew u have already chosen a companion on this journey called life. I wanted to hate u and I tried my hardest at it.

But men fail, and so did I, in my attempts to draw myself away from u. You know today when I see u, i might not say a word, but that's just because words fail me.. and I cannot tell you how much I still love u...

I know u mite never read this.. and never will u ever understand what i wanted to say then and what I want to say now... but the fact shall remain 'Loved U Once, Still Love U and Shall Continue to Love U!!'

- Gaurav

Letting GO!!

In ur life u come across a lot of people. Some become special, some become a part of u. But things not always remain the same. Confusions, confrontations, conflicts are a few things which drive u away from the ones u love. I have been through something similar. There were people who were my soul. But then as always I screwed up things.

People moved away from me and I kept standing looking at them leaving me behind. My world shattered, I had no1 by my side.. I kept trying to bring them back to me.. but life doesn't always gives u what u want.

Mornings came, evenings went.. time went by.. my loneliness kept me company. I was down, alone, wandering in emptiness. But now I have learnt to live through all of this.. I don't need people to kept me going.. I was always alone and alone I shall be... I have learnt to let go.

Letting some1 go is not that bad at all.. as I m realizing it now.

I M Missing Some1

Yes, I actually m missing some1. And no prizes for guessing - it is a girl. She is not the usual types. She is intelligent, straightforward and knows how to carry her head on her shoulders.

If u wud have asked me 2 years back - will I ever miss her? The answer wud have been a definite - NO. But then, things change with time and as u discover people u get to know their true personalities.

She believed she knows me inside-out. I wud say she knows me quit well. We were friends for almost a year. Our conversations were mainly on calls. I met her only twice during this period. Once on her birthday, she gave me a card - saying a lot of gud things abt me.

But then something happened, something that drew me away from her. It takes 2 to tango - so 1 can blame both of us.

I m clueless how to reach out to her again. And if she cud listen - Yes, I Miss U.

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Keep Rocking.

Life Has Come Around A Full Circle

Yes my worst nightmares have come to life and what I have been escaping is finally upon me. The damn thing is called - WPF (abbreviation for Windows Presentation Foundation), just another tech thing Microsoft threw at the world. Last year when I joined this company in January I was given the task to learn and get on with this technology and only I know what I was going through. Having an old PC (which I had to share with my brother) was not helping my cause. So, I slogged and slogged long and hard but to no avail.

Time went by and I mode to ASP.NET something I like doing. But this year again I m right where I left. I need to get on with WPF for a project I am moved onto now. But this time I m better prepared and looking to tackle the whole situation head-on. Three cheers to that.. .

Will rite again. Till Then,

Keep Rocking.